I understand the why but really, even that is part of why I'm angry.
... because living in this world is already hard enough without having to watch your back and your words so that you don't inadvertently allow an officemate attack you.
... because the people discussing about the "improvement of my self-centered-ness" is a bunch of selfish, mean and power-hungry people. To add insult to injury, they are being as they are because they think I'm competition when I have no desire to have what they want to have.
... because I have always prided myself of almost always being good intentioned. The insinuation that I'm doing or not something for credit or to hog all the credit or take credit from someone just makes me want to pack my bags and leave.
... because I have given every job I had everything I had. Therefore, to be told that I have to do more and that i'm not doing enough really just grates on me.
I don't want to be angry. When I'm angry, I tend to be destructive and distracted. I want to make a graceful exit, as much as I can.
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4 comments:
the situation in your office seems to be getting worse. loopy guy really needs to get his head checked.
allow yourself to be angry but don't let it consume you. we can't really please everybody, and it's a sad reality that people who have nothing to contribute are usually the ones who do so wonderfully well in pulling others down. guess it's the ONLY thing they CAN do.
you're a great worker, D. to a fault, actually. eff them.
a, actually, the idea behind that long e-mail was from Xavier. Loopy Fellow had been away, out of the country for a month. He (Xavier), said i should send Loopy Fellow an e-mail before he (Loopy Fellow) calls me up asking about things. Give him the impression of being in control.
The idea is sound. Except that the thinking behind it is mainly, in a way, to justify what i've done with my time, communicate that i'm a valuable employee, etc. Yes, it's office politics.
You know how much i detest politics.
Luz, thanks for the support. I really was just surprised to realize that I'm angry. In a way, I'm glad that it come to me as a realization. At least, i know that it hasn't taken over me yet.
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